Am I Sisyphus?

In Greek mythology, the story of Sisyphus is about a man who was punished for eternity by endlessly having to push a massive boulder up a hill as it would roll back down each time just before reaching the top.  Some interpretations of the story view this struggle as describing an endless and pointless task.  But another, written by Albert Camus in his essay, The Myth of Sisyphus, concludes by explaining that it’s the struggle that “is enough to fill a man’s heart.”  The piece ends with the line, “One must imagine Sisyphus happy.”

In many ways, right now I feel like Sisyphus.  But I’m not happy.  I see the story of Sisyphus a bit differently.  While he may have been condemned to push the boulder up the hill for eternity, any real-world interpretation of this must account for our free will to engage in such struggle.  And while struggle brings change and growth, it does not guarantee happiness.